90 Days of Spring: 80 – Day 79

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第80 第七十九日 Chapter 80 The Seventy Ninth Day

一起生活了那麼久,淼淼從未往這方面想過。蓋因衛泠待她忽冷忽熱,情緒捉摸不定,有時十分嫌棄她,有時又著實為她考慮。她想過是衛泠的性格使然,並未放在心上,目下猛地被一個丫鬟點醒,剎那間懵住了。
Living together for so long, Miao Miao never thought about it. Because of the hot and cold nature of her, she was very upset and sometimes disliked her, and sometimes she thought about it. She thought that it was Wei Ling’s character that did not set her mind on her mind, but suddenly she was waken up by a servant girl.

從小到大衛泠為她做過許多事,兩人相攜為伴,這份感情早已勝過親人勝過朋友,是她漫長生命裡彌足珍貴的一個人。
From childhood to David to do a lot of things for her, two people together, this feeling has been better than a friend more than a friend, is a precious person in her long life.

如今一個旁人告訴她,衛泠心裡有她?
Now someone else told her that Wei Ling had her in mind.

淼淼緊握著幾片魚鱗,被刺疼了手心也無動於衷,不可置信地盯著面前鎮定的丫鬟。「你怎麼知道……這是我的?」
Miao Li grasped several scales of fish and was stabbed with pain. The palm of his hand was unmoved. He could not believe the gaze of the servant girl in front of him. “How do you know… Is this mine? ”

她現在的身份應當無人知曉,更不會有人知道她就是當初的小丫鬟,為何她如此肯定?
No one knows her identity now. No one will know that she is the little servant girl. Why is she so sure?

那丫鬟仍舊低著頭,髮頂被窗外的日光鍍了一層薄光,「如果婢子沒有猜錯,女郎和衛郎君應該是鮫人。」
The servant girl still lowered her head and plated a thin layer of sunlight out of the window. “If the servant girl did not guess wrong, the girl and” Wei Lang Jun “should be the shark. ”

她說得很平靜,好像一點兒也不詫異,只是略微停頓的語序出賣了她,以及輕顫的雙肩洩露了她的情緒。
She spoke very quietly, as if not surprised at all, but only a slight pause in the word order betrayed her, and her shoulders trembling and betrayed her feelings.

淼淼驚愕,眼神立即變得警惕,「你從何得知?」
Amazed, the eyes immediately became alert. “How did you learn? ”

丫鬟稍稍抬起眼瞼,雙眸掠過一抹複雜神色,旋即越過她看向床榻方向,「這幾日均是由婢子伺候衛郎君,幾日前他舊疾復發,手上和頸上皆出現了灰黑色鱗片,後來入了水中才見好。女郎既然與他是舊識,必定知道他的身份。衛郎君看這個香囊的眼神,同看您的眼神是一樣的,今日您既然見了香囊內的東西而不吃驚,想來便是您的東西。」
The servant girl raised his eyelids a little, and his eyes swept over a complex look. He passed her over to the bed. “These days were the servants of the maidservant, who was waiting for him. He had a relapse of his old disease a few days ago. Since the girl is old acquaintance with him, he must know his identity. Wei Langjun looked at the look of the sachet. It was the same as looking at your eyes. Today, you are not surprised to see anything in the sachet. ”

淼淼心下咯登,不由得佩服起這丫鬟的觀察和推斷能力,她點點頭,「這是我的。」
Mian Miao’s heart was so strong that she could not help but admire the observation and inference ability of the servant girl. She nodded. “This is mine. ”

音落,頭一回見這丫鬟露出笑意,極為淺淡的一筆,是滿園春.色中一株清新的茉莉,「婢子照顧著衛郎君起居,自然知道他每日要拿起香囊看多少遍,如若不是愛至深處,何至於此?」
At the end of the day, the girl saw the servant girl with a smile, a very shallow brush, a fresh spring in the garden. “The maidservant took care of Wei Jun, and naturally knew how many times he had to pick up the sachet every day, if not deep in love, why here?” ”

她看著衛泠為她傷身,人不在時拿著魚鱗緬懷,人來了他卻不冷不熱地對待。偏偏兩個當局者,一個悶著不說,一個渾然不知,叫旁觀者看得著急。
She watched Wei Ling hurt her body, and when he was away, he remembered the fish scales. The two authorities, one of them, did not know what to say.

她知道王爺對淼淼女郎極為重視,然而這幾日的相處,她的心愈發偏向衛泠這一邊。愛而不說,求而不得,大抵是很深的感情才能藏匿得如此深。她自嘲般一笑,自己又何嘗不是如此。
She knew that King Yee attached great importance to the Miao girls. However, these days, her heart became more and more inclined to Wei Ling. Love is not to say, but not to ask. It is a deep feeling that can hide so deeply. She laughs with herself, and is not so.

淼淼緊緊盯著她,似要從她臉上看出究竟,「你為何告訴我這些?」
Miao looked at her closely, as if to see from her face, “why do you tell me this? ”

這個丫鬟她統共見過兩次,對她印象並不深,只覺得沉默寡言,不愛說話,沒想到今日一開口,便是這麼石破天驚的一句。
She had seen two times and was not very impressed with her. She only felt silent and did not love to speak. He did not think of her opening today.

丫鬟想了想,「婢子只是覺得,需要給衛郎君一個公平的機會。」
The servant girl thought, “the servant girl just felt that he needed a fair opportunity for Wei Lang. ”

淼淼抿唇,「什麼意思?」
The Miao lips, “what do you mean?” ”

她輕聲道:「您以前只把衛郎君當親人,並不知曉他對您的感情,如今既然知道了,便會重新看待他。如果您知道了,仍然喜歡著王爺,那就算衛郎君輸了,也會了無遺憾。如果您一直不知道,那便是對衛郎君的不公。」
She said softly, “you used to be only a relative of Wei Lang Jun, and did not know his feelings for you. Now that you know it, you will see him again. If you know, still like Wang Ye, even if Wei Lang Jun lost, there will be no regrets. If you have never known it, it is unfair to Wei Lang Jun. ”

衛泠為她做了許多事,只是因為心裡有她。如若這份感情她一直都不知道,那委實對衛泠極不公平。
Wei Ling did many things for her, just because she was in her heart. If she had never known this feeling, it would be unfair to Wei Ling.

她也叫淼淼,以前那個得寵的小丫鬟也叫淼淼,不得不讓人多想。這個丫鬟隱約猜到一些,可惜衛泠對她的話不多,她更不可能開口詢問,也僅止步於猜測罷了。
She is also called Miao Miao, who used to be a little girl who was very fond of being called Miao Miao. The servant girl vaguely guessed some. Unfortunately, Wei Ling didn’t say much to her. She couldn’t even ask questions, but only stopped speculation.

既然他們同樣都是鮫人,在一起不是更好嗎?跟王爺在一起不會品種不合嗎,日後生的孩子是什麼樣呢?
Since they are both sharks, wouldn’t it be better to be together? Is it not appropriate to be with Wang Ye? What are the children born in the future?

淼淼沒想這麼多,滿腦子都被這個驚天動地的消息佔據了,她手腳甚至不知放哪兒,怔怔地聽著她的話。「這件事你還同誰說過?」
Miao Miao did not think so much. Her mind was occupied by the earth shaking news. She didn’t even know where to put her hands and feet, and listened to her with a stare. “Who else have you told you about this?” ”

那丫鬟重新低下頭,輕輕地搖了搖,「只有婢子一人知曉,並未告訴任何人。」
The servant girl lowered her head and shook it gently. “Only a servant girl knows and never tells anyone. ”

那就好,淼淼鬆一口氣,近乎逃避地繞過她身側,「不要跟任何人說,誰都不行。」
“Well, then, with a sigh of relief, she almost evade her side.” don’t tell anyone, no one can do it. ”

說著鑽出房門,只想逃回去好好消化這個消息。
Speaking out of the door, I just wanted to escape and digest the news.

她腳步驀然停住,未料想迎面撞見一人,想也不想地後退數步,不知所措地撞在廊柱上,「衛、衛泠。」
Her footsteps stopped suddenly. She did not expect to meet one person face to face, but she did not want to step back. ”

***

衛泠正從院外回來,仍舊是一襲玄青色長袍,更是襯得他修長挺拔,身形如松。他就立在幾步之外,蹙眉看著淼淼的動作,「你怎麼在此?」
Wei Ling is coming back from the hospital. He is still a dark blue robe. It is also a contrast between him and his body. He stood outside a few steps, frowning at the movements of the Miao, “Why are you here?” ”

這兩天她沒來瑞灃院,倒是讓丫鬟買了許多進補的藥材送來,他其實不需要那些,不過最後還是收下了。本以為她跟楊復苦盡甘來,會沒有心思顧得上他,沒想到這小姑娘倒挺有良心。
On the two day, she did not come to Ruifeng hospital, but let the servant girl buy many tonic herbs. He actually didn’t need those, but finally accepted it. This thought that she and Yang Fu suffered all the hardships, would not have the heart to attend to him, did not think this little girl actually has the conscience.

行將聽罷丫鬟一席話,淼淼沒整理好思緒,根本不知該如何面對他,「我……我來看看你。」
He would listen to the servant girl’s words, Miao Miao did not finish his thoughts, and did not know how to face him. Let me see you. ”

衛泠哂笑,眉宇間氣質清冷,「我不需要你看,你照顧好自己便是。」
Wei Ling laughed, and his brow was cold. “I don’t need you to see that you take good care of yourself. ”

淼淼訥訥地哦一聲,被他堵得啞口無言,一時間有些沉默。她面對衛泠時本不是這樣的,她有說不完的話,一見他便覺得分外親近,好像他們之間沒有任何隔閡。可是現在怎麼了,她竟然不知如何面對他?
He was so silent that he was silent for some time. When she was faced with Wei Ling, this was not the case. When she could not finish speaking, he felt very close when he saw him, as if there was no estrangement between them. But now what’s wrong? She doesn’t know how to face him.

淼淼的手指緊緊絞著,糾結得不得了。「如果你沒事……那……那我先走了。」
The fingers of the Miao Miao were tightly twisted and entangled. “If you’re all right… So… Then I went first. ”

衛泠心裡有她,暗自收藏著她的魚鱗,真是因為喜歡她嗎?她可不可以問出口?如果問了,他們以後還能像現在這樣相處嗎?
Wei Ling has her heart, and collectors her fish scales secretly. Is she really fond of her? Can she ask the exit? If asked, can they get along like this now?

話說完後一動不動,衛泠見她行為古怪,路過她跟前時賞她一個毛栗子,「回去吧。」
After speaking, motionless, Wei Ling saw her behaved oddly, and passed her a chestnut on her way. “Go back.” ”

眼瞅著他舉步入屋,淼淼心慌意亂地盯著他,鬼使神差地抓住他的袖子,神情慌忙,「等、等等,我有事問你!」
He watched him step into the room, staring at him in a panic, catching his sleeves, and hurriedly, “wait, wait, I have something to ask you!” ”

衛泠果然駐足,偏頭疑惑地望來,「何事?」
Wei Ling really stopped and looked doubting. “What is it?” ”

方才那股衝動勁兒下去了,淼淼嚥了嚥口水,重又變得退縮怯懦,「我……我想……」
Just then the impulse continued, and the Miao swallow swallowed his saliva, and again became cowardly and cowardly. “I… I think… ”

可惜囁囁嚅嚅半響,仍舊沒能說出一句完整的話,末了洩氣地扁扁嘴,那模樣簡直快要哭出來了。
Unfortunately, I was unable to utter a complete sentence, but at the end of it, I could hardly speak out.

衛泠無奈失笑,「想問什麼?」
Wei Ling is helpless to laugh, “what do you want to ask?” ”

掙扎半響,心裡閃過無數個年頭,淼淼一根根指頭鬆開他的衣袖,小腦袋低低地耷拉著,聲音彷彿從遙遠的天邊傳來,模糊而不真實,「衛泠,你喜歡我嗎?」
The struggle half sound, the heart flashes countless years, the Miao one root finger loosens his sleeve, the small head lowly droop, the sound seems to come from the distant horizon, blurred but not true, “Wei Ling, do you like me?” ”

話說完後,她一直沒有抬頭看他的表情。
After speaking, she never looked up at his expression.

衛泠怔在原地,面前的小姑娘彷彿鼓起了此生最大的勇氣,大有破罐子破摔的架勢。
Wei Ling Zheng was in the original place. The little girl in front seemed to have the greatest courage in this life, and it had the power to break the pot.

他靜靜地看著她,沉默了許久才道:「嗯,喜歡。」
He looked at her silently, and for a long time he said, “well, I like it.” ”

他喜歡她,從她還是一條傻乎乎的鮫人時候。從最初的嫌棄到稀罕,連他自己都不清楚中間是怎麼轉變的。好像一眨眼過去許多年,心裡就只剩下了她,見不得她哭,見不得她難過,見不得她受傷,所以能代勞的事情都為她代勞。
He liked her when she was still a silly shark. From the initial dislike to the rarity, he himself did not know how the middle had changed. Like a blink of an eye for many years, the heart was left only her, can not see her cry, can not see her sad, can not see her hurt, so can work for her to work for her.

然而他再怎麼喜歡,都只是剃頭擔子一頭熱。起初他曾醞釀過如何跟她開口,尚未想出個結果,她便喜歡上了岸上英俊不凡的四王。
However, how he likes it is only a hot shoulder. At first, he had thought about how to talk to her, and had not yet thought of a result. She liked Kishikami Youngjun’s extraordinary four kings.

從此他將這份感情埋藏心底,她想要什麼,他都會幫她得到。
From then on, he buried the feelings in the bottom of her heart. What she wanted, he would help her.

這是他悄悄喜歡了許多年的小姑娘,不曾告訴過任何人,甚至連自己都快被欺騙過去。如今她俏生生地站在他面前,問他是不是喜歡她。
This is the little girl whom he has been fond of for many years. He has never told anyone, and even himself is being cheated. Now she stood in front of him and asked him if he liked her.

怎麼會不喜歡呢?他自嘲,根本不想否認。
How can I dislike it? He mocked himself and did not want to deny it at all.

大約沒料到他會如此坦誠地承認,淼淼霎時啞口無言,倉惶地對上他的雙目,幾次啟唇,均未說出一個字。
It was not expected that he would admit so frankly that the Miao man was speechless in a moment, and made no attempt to say a word to his eyes and lips.

所有的話都比不上她的震驚,如果說剛才只是胡思亂想,那麼眼下被印證了,她想逃避都沒法。衛泠喜歡她,跟她的喜歡不一樣。
All the words were not as shocking as she was. If she was just thinking about it, she was confirmed at the moment. She wanted to escape. Wei Ling likes her, not the same as she likes.

知道嚇住她了,衛泠轉過頭輕笑,「你可以當做沒聽到。我不會影響你跟楊復,更不會因此要求你什麼。」
Knowing to frighten her, Wei Ling turned his head and smiled. “You can’t hear it. I will not affect you and Yang Fu, nor will I ask you for anything. ”

她何時這麼想過!
When did she think about it!

淼淼有些委屈,她從來沒有懷疑過他,更沒往這方面想過。他是什麼人她再清楚不過,如果他真這麼做了,便不會費盡心機地幫她了。
Miao had some grievances, and she never doubted him. What he is, she knows perfectly well, but if he does, she will not do her best to help her.

她只是太詫異了,以往的畫面一幅幅鋪展在她面前,意味全然不同。如果衛泠以前幫她是因為喜歡她,那後來為何要幫著她接近楊復……又幫著她變成人呢?
She was just too surprised that the previous images spread out in front of her, meaning totally different. If Wei Ling used to help her because she liked her, why did she help her close to Yang Fu later? And help her to become a man?

她想不通,更不好意思詢問。
She couldn’t get through, and she was more embarrassed to ask.

衛泠睇向她,「誰告訴你的?」
Wei Ling looked at her. “Who told you?” ”

依照她的性子,恐怕再修煉個半輩子也發現不了,那麼笨的腦子,沒有旁人指點根本不會開竅。
In accordance with her temperament, I am afraid that I can not find another half life in my life. I can not find my stupid brain.

淼淼下意識往屋內看去,並未見到那個丫鬟的身影,她雖不說話,但衛泠已然清明。
Miao Miao unconscious looked inside the house, did not see the figure of the servant girl, although she did not speak, but Wei Ling has been clear.

那丫鬟名喚綠竹,早就看出她有些不對勁,只是並未放在心上罷了。衛泠黑眸微動,綠竹只照顧他幾天,對他存著什麼心思一看便知,他不在意,便睜一隻眼閉一隻眼,未料想竟自作主張告訴她這些。
The servant girl called the green bamboo, but she could see that something was wrong with her. Wei Ling black eyes fretting, the green bamboo only take care of him for a few days, what he kept in mind to see the knowledge, he did not care, then open one eye closed one eye, did not expect to have a self assertion to tell her these.

「方才那些話,」他頓了頓,踅身舉步,「你不必放在心上。」
“Just those words,” he paused and lifted himself. “You don’t have to worry about it. ”

說著人已進屋,留下淼淼一人呆呆怔怔。
The speaker had entered the room, leaving a Miao man standing in a blank stare.

怎麼能不放在心上,她的一顆心都攪得亂七八糟,連怎麼離開的都不知道。
How could she not mind, her heart was mixed up, even how to leave do not know.

***

淼淼沒有回溶光院,而是來到當初的海棠院。如今海棠花泰半都敗了,花瓣片片碾入土壤中,只餘下淡淡花香。
Miao did not return to the light house, but came to the Begonia court. Now the Begonia flower is lost in the first half, and the petals flakes into the soil, leaving only the faint fragrance of flowers.

淼淼立在一顆海棠樹下,撫摸著樹幹出神,不知不覺就想到當初跟衛泠在這個院裡,他耐心地跟她講解海棠花該如何種植澆灌。那場景歷歷在目,他的眉眼是前所未有的溫柔。當初怎麼沒發現呢,衛泠很怕麻煩,唯有她這個麻煩一直沒甩掉。
The Miao, standing under a tree of the Begonia, touched the trunk of the tree, and unconsciously thought that he was in this courtyard with Wei Ling. He explained patiently to her how to plant and irrigate the flower of the Begonia. The scene is vivid, and his eyebrow is an unprecedented gentleness. How did she not find it? Wei Lin was very afraid of trouble.

淼淼掏出血石,拿在手中認認真真地端詳,裡面殷紅的血滴順著紋路緩緩流動,只要她一開口,那邊就能聽到。
Miao Miao took out blood stone and held it in his hands to see the truth. The red blood droplets slowly flowed along the lines. As long as she spoke, she could hear it.

可是她要說什麼?
But what is she going to say?

以後再也不能跟以前那樣面對衛泠了,她愧歉他許多,連這份感情都不能予以回應。
Later, she could never face Wei Ling as before. She was so ashamed and apologized that he could not even respond to this feeling.

衛泠很好,可是不是她喜歡的人。他們其實都一樣,認定了便不會改變,俗稱一根筋。
Wei Ling is very good, but not the person she likes. They are all alike, and they will not change if they are determined.

淼淼從早晨站到中午,頭頂太陽愈發刺眼,她卻連腳步都不曾挪動一下。直至楊復從宮中回來,她還在樹底下發呆。
Miao Miao stood from noon to noon, and the sun was more dazzling on her head, but she didn’t even move her feet. Until Yang Fu came back from the palace, she was still stunned under the tree.

前院後院遍尋不著,只好找來此處,哪知她還真在這兒。這姑娘不知什麼毛病,一有心事就喜歡來這地方,無時不在提醒楊復當初犯下的錯誤。他讓她看管照顧此處,正好給了她和衛泠相處的機會,這裡每一處都有他倆的回憶,卻同他無關。
The backyard of the front yard could not find it everywhere, so she had to find it. The girl did not know what was wrong. She liked to come to this place whenever she had worries, and reminded Yang Fu at the beginning of her mistakes. He told her to take care of the place, which gave her the chance to get along with Wei Ling.

楊復尚未更換常服,繁瑣華貴的長袍更添雅儒風姿,他站在海棠園門口的石階上,身前是簌簌飄落的海棠花瓣。捲起一陣清風,粉白花瓣落在他的肩頭、袖上,他垂眸拈下,朝她走來。
Yang Fu had not yet changed his uniform, and the elegant robe was more elegant and elegant. He stood on the stone steps at the entrance of the Begonia Garden. A cool breeze rolled up, and white petals fell on his shoulders and sleeves.

淼淼聞聲回頭,也不知道發了多久的呆,像極了做錯事被抓個現成的孩子,「我……」
Miao Miao heard his voice back, and he didn’t know how long he had been waiting for him. He was caught like a child in a wrong way. ”

楊復停在跟前,「站在這兒做什麼?」
Yang Futing was in front of him. “What’s standing here?” ”

淼淼被看得心虛,偏頭迴避他的目光,「我在想事情。」
Miao Miao was looked at with a guilty conscience and avoided his eyes. “I was thinking about things. ”

她這單純的腦子還有想事情的時候,楊復眸中瀉出一抹笑意,看她的眼裡多了幾分縱容,「在想什麼,不能同我說?」
When she had a simple mind and thought about things, Yang Fu Mou, in her eyes, has a little bit of a smile, “why can’t you say it to me?” ”

淼淼琢磨片刻,他和衛泠素來不對盤,若是讓他知道此事,必定會惹來更大的麻煩,索性選擇隱瞞,「不能跟你說。」
When he ponder for a moment, he and Wei Ling are not in the right place. If let him know this, it will cause more trouble, and choose to hide it, “can’t tell you.” ”

殊不知眼前的人早知道了,衛泠對她的心思,早就在他面前暴露無遺。
Little did they know that the people in front of him had known it, and Wei Ling’s Thoughts on her had been exposed in front of him.

楊復眸色轉深,不能跟他說的事,會是何事?
Yang Fu’s eyes turn deep. What can’t he tell him?

聽下人回稟言,她今天一早去了瑞灃院,也就是說她是見罷衛泠後才如此的。其中真相如何,找瑞豐院的丫鬟一問便知。
Listen to the following words, she went to Ruifeng hospital early today, that is to say, after she saw Wei Ling. The truth is how to find the servant girl in Ruifeng hospital.

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